With graduation (OMG!!) peering at me from a month away, I’m in the midst of school-work today, but I want to take a moment to discuss something important. Actually, it’s more than that. I have a confession to make…
I’m a bit of a lollygagger.
Yes, I know… shocking. I’ve certainly broached this topic before, but I’ll be darned if I’m going to search my blog archives for it. I’m a creative fella, so I tend to daydream and busy myself thinking artsy thoughts, but ya know what? That really gets in the way, sometimes 😉 . It always has, actually. Sure, I’m fantastic at distracting myself when I’m disinterested in something; I used to spend hours and hours doing my homework not because I was struggling with the actual work, but because I’d been twirling my pencil or rearranging my protractor in my drawer. That’s common, I know, but it extends beyond boring ol’ homework. It carries over into work tasks and even things that I WANT to do (like creative writing or playing a game). It’s not always so simple as basic environmental distraction, either. I might carry on a fake conversation between two characters (often leading to creative story ideas), I might daydream for emotionally cathartic reasons, but beyond all else, I just do a lot of nothingness and slow myself down. The irony is that I also tend to pile on too MANY “wants” and then drown myself in my inability to do every little thing that I want to do.
I don’t have ADD. I know what that looks like; I have studied it and experienced it first-hand through relationship with one of my friends. If ADD was a broad spectrum disorder such as Autism, then perhaps I might find myself on the tail end of that diagnosis, but no… I can concentrate my thoughts just fine, I just don’t.
So, why am I babbling about this? Because this is my website, and I do what I want! Also, I’ve set a goal for myself: be faster. It’s a very specific goal, of course. What this means to me, more than anything, is basically taking a two-fold approach to my issue of being slow: first, minimize the daydreaming and internal dialoguing; second, halt the multitasking. These things, alone, can be really difficult for me… both out of habit and natural inclination. I can’t change how I think, of course, but by golly I can sure be a heck of a lot more efficient with my time. That’s what I’m after… greater efficiency. If I have a paper to write, why the heck not just blast through it and get it done in a couple of hours, instead of over-pacing myself and distracting myself with concurrent tasks along the way and extending this paper-writing to an all-day affair. This works for homework, chores, creative work, just about everything. My goodness, man, just get it done!
I’ve always been a little slow-to-start, taking my sweet time and working at my own pace, but maybe, with a little concentrated effort, I can make a change to what that natural pace actually is.
Wish me luck!
P.S. – This post took me 48 minutes to create, from finding the image to the final edit. I’ll get there 😉 .