Feb. 2, 2011:
The above still is from a quick shot we stole tonight. With production for the web-series, Mild Mannered, coming up soon, I’ve mapped out a schedule for the next few days that should cover enough to allow me to finish up the whole movie with only one more full day of shooting. After a dead battery, we weren’t able to shoot one of the small scenes I’d planned on for tonight, but it’s okay… these things happen, and we can easily add it onto another night.
Putting this movie together has actually been a very interesting experience. Obviously, I’m thrilled to finally be putting myself out there after having talked about making movies for so long, and I’m having fun with it, but I’ve had an unexpected responses in the wake of it all. Making movies is a real high, so there has always been a “coming down” period for me, but they’ve never really been MY movies… always something I was working on with/for a friend. I can’t say that I EXPECTED some deeper, longer-lasting satisfaction from producing my own work, but I’ve still been a little confused by the fact that I haven’t had it. Actually, not so much confused by that, really, but as by the idea that I’ve slowly been realizing – I could pretty easily live without doing this.
It’s a very odd place to find myself, because I really enjoy telling stories and I love to perform… but it’s not everything. Of course, I knew that for some time, before even starting this project, but it’s been kind of funny to face it while now on my OWN movie. I pondered the strength of it at the end of my long Unbold post, but there is only one Earthly thing I really care about finding… and creative accomplishment isn’t it.
What’s made it so interesting is that, for the first time, this kind of reaction is not because I’ve failed, procrastinated, or because I’m afraid. Things have actually been going rather smashingly, and I’ve been in a great head-space about it all. I’m still full-steam on putting this movie together, but it’s kind of like facing a fear… I’ve looked the beast in the eye and taken charge of it, but in finally doing so, the interest and importance it once had in my mind has been deflated.
Interesting, indeed :). I’ll be shooting Thursday and Friday nights, as well as Saturday morning, so I’ll write about all of those in one post. Below are some actual stills from the first day of shooting, that you might enjoy taking a gander at.
There won’t be story spoilers, by any means… but it’s a PRODUCTION journal, so I’ll be talking about locations and other details. If you’d rather just see the movie fresh, don’t read on – these posts will always be here later.